This is how I really feel,

Two days before we recieved our referral we found out that we were going to have to make 2 trips to Ethiopia. Honestly, Troy and I were pretty upset. We even talked about pulling out of the adoption. Partially, because of the stress and a big part because of the money. We are still trying to play catch up from the 6 months that Troy was out of a job. Then Friday, March 12th, we saw the cutest little face and the two trips seemed like no big deal. We could figure out a way to get money... We are still planning on following through with everything, but now that the initial high has worn off, here is where I am. All I can think of is the emotional roller coaster those two trips are going to be. First, we have to leave our other two kids at home and be gone about a week. Meet wonderful Baby H and at the end of the week leave him in Ethiopia. Then 3-6 weeks later we have to go back through the same thing. Leave two kids be gone a week, but in that week Baby H will get to come home with us. Wow, I am going to be wiped out by the end of all of this.
So, then I have to hand it all over to God and think that He knows what is best for us. And there is a reason that we need to make two trips. And there is a reason I have to leave all of my babies for so long. Logic is not winning out at this point, but I am working on it. Please be in prayer for us during this time. And please pray that our paperwork will be submitted before April 9th!